For years I have often read/followed certain blogs and every so often I've felt a little inspired to start my own. However I've never had a "decent" reason to start one/ inspiration/ exciting life happenings to ramble on. (Not exciting enough for others to want to read about anyway)

So what might be the reason for starting one now? 

A few months back i was living in London in a top floor flat with my girlfriend, a flatmate and my cat. I had recently dropped out of university, was working two jobs to make ends meet and was experiencing financial problems. Our current flatmate had refused to pay rent or bills whilst living with us and resulted in her moving out. We then began to receive threats from our estate agents stating that we were liable to pay the other part of the rent. My hours begun to get cut at work, the pricing of food and drink shot up alongside travel fares and I started to receive those horrid letters that everyone dreads (and I am ashamed to say that I have opened a few) DEBT-COLLECTION!!!! 

From there on-wards it was a downward spiral and I'm still not 100% certain on some of the things that happened. I became afraid of the outside world shutting myself away everyday, not being able to work, everything sounding as if i were under water, sweating profusely, chest pains, not wanting to talk to anyone and unfortunately (i hate to admit this part) not wanting to be in this world any longer. 

Fortunately I have an extremely supportive family and girlfriend and they helped me get back on track. I was then diagnosed with GAD.  Having the great support of the NHS and my family really helped to get me back to the person I used to be! The image below inspired me a lot at the time thanks to the amazing Kerri Smith!!!

So about a month later me and my girlfriend were discussing a possible move as we'd had enough of the bad energy in our flat. It was then that we made a very spontaneous decision to move to Northern Ireland (where the gf is from). We sold as much as possible, took every hour possible at work for the next 4 weeks and camped in a tent in my mother's garden.

Le Tepee^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

May I just take the time to mention that my mother is an ANGEL! She has been the most supportive person in my life. Not only majorly financially (obviously with the great help from the world's best stepfather!) but also in terms of life decisions.

Le mother and Le step-father ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

So we packed what we could on our backs put the cat in his carrier and ventured to the north of Ireland.

Le me ^^^^ saying fairwell to London